things to do:
1. STD awareness campaign video for world histo
2. study for world histo MQT
3. study for advanced algeb quiz
4. study for chem quiz
5. follow up on prom preps
6. study for acet thingy
7. be happy!
hahahohoheheho! can't believe its wednesday already. tempus fugit!!!! parang kahapon lang i was uber frustrated about something, pero now... hehe. totally gagging over it. fo sho mga pare!!! can't believe how ever so irksome i got regarding that thingy thingy. i must be getting el desperado if i keep on thinking such thoughts.
in any case, am totally gonna follow hot papa anton estrada's [yeh kua anton is the best!] advice. stay away meekah! stay away from the... thingy thingy. hehehe.
got to have a "heart to heart" talk with ate yesterday. we started by cursing each other. actually... i think i was the only one cursing, since i'm the only one who actually knows HOW to curse in the family. i was going: "you're such a bitch! grr... f****** world!" and she was like: "i hate it when you say the f word." and i was like: "i said f******world, not f*** you. take offense when i say f*** you." she said: "ah, ok." and then i started crying.
dunno actually what triggered the sudden hyperactivity of my tearducts. stress probably, and frustration. dad has been so friggin unreasonable the whole week, and he n' mum keep on giving me the: "you are the spawn of the devil -slash- walang kwenta kang anak" look. geez. not to be boastful but i do believe that some parents would kill to have me as their daughter... i don't do drugs, i don't have casual sex, i don't have illegal relationships, i don't steal, i don't cheat, i don't fail in school, and i don't kill people. what more can they ask?!
grr-ness.
deng. i miss inna. wasn't able to talk to her that much today. and i miss avin too. he keeps me sane... well, he used to.
grr-ness.
utter grr-ness.
ooh. this is gonna sound so cheesy but hey, it was the only appropriate song i could think of. ho come on! alangan naman mama i love you by the spice girls di bah??
"So I walked under a bus,
I got hit by a train,
Keep falling in love,
Which is kinda the same,
I've sunk out at sea,
Crashed my car,
gone insane,
And it felt so good
I want to do it again"
-Bachelor Girl
definitely no longer searching for utopia, an ergaslophobic student and aspiring thespian, a true blue Filipina and Assumptionist, existing in a state of utter discombobulation, *BROKE*, and fattening myself up in time for the next human sacrifice ritual in tondo, manila...
Stars and Nebulas
aLi
bea
cathy
caMs
[[twinstaR]]
[[fRienD]]
kaTrina
gaDDi
iSSa
jOnesie
[[myky]]
[[nica]]
pam
[[stephie]]
synty
[[tasia]]
trizza
wissa
Flight
Alanis Morissette
Carbon Stereoxide Studio Notes
Cold Play
Dashboard Confessional
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
Haruki Murakami
Milk&Cereal
Miss Saigon
Paulo Coelho
Rent - the Musicale
Shawn Mullins
System of a Down
The Simpsons
The Sims
The Used
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==:::A Few Friendly Reminders from your Resident Sane Psycho:::==
life is an unequivocally fast paced string of events, where the essence of a lifetime can be captured in a single breath, love can develop in a second, and where a long journey can feel like just another ride in the metro rail...
so put on your pink tinted glasses, wear your cheesiest smile. life's too short and much too precious to waste with the frivolities of a shallow existence.
let's limbo!
change is the only constant thing in life.
though it is most difficult to cope with change, we must.
it is survival. it is evolution.
but then again,
what if this change is brought about by paranormal sensations and emotions, unforeseen circumstances, hormonal imbalances, and... the weather?
what if this change is caused by things that are not things. forces that are immaterial?
how do we cope?
how do we end the relentless and crazed see-saw of intense emotions churning deep within us?
how do we stop misery?
how do we prolong happiness?
with a four millimeter bullet?
with a cup of peppermint-tasting cyanide?
with prayer?
i don't know.
i can't even begin to pretend to know, or to comprehend.
and i'm sure,
neither can you.
and it scares me.
it scares us.
that this we cannot understand.
everything else --science, mathematics, ratios, proportions, wars, peace talks, chocolate sprinkles and gum drops, ponies and rabbits, Nobel awards-- we know.
but this,
this simple shift of light and darkness,
this slight distinction,
this sudden rearranging of matter, molecules, and sensations.
this indescribable phenomena.
this we cannot even begin to grasp.
illogical, senseless, strange, odd.
fleeting, momentous, gargantuan, colossal.
what is the meaning behind this change in mood? in feeling?
what is the real root? the common cause?
perhaps we have been doomed to be this way.
to not understand.
to be left in the dark.
doomed to be able to adapt with everything else but this simple swing.
this simplistic issue.
never to find a way to evolve around it.
but perhaps.... in this case,
evolution is not survival.
for if you can just grin and bear it.
take it for what it is.
let go of the logic behind it.
perhaps then, survival is possible.
change is not imperative.
accepting is a prerogative, the answer, the key.