Somewhere Along Limbo
compassion - antipathy // animosity - love // redemption - down fall // truth - lies // shame - glory // happiness - dolor // significant - trivial // sophisticated - childlike // jaded - brighteyed // naive - cynical // vivid - vague // reality - fiction...

definitely no longer searching for utopia, an ergaslophobic student and aspiring thespian, a true blue Filipina and Assumptionist, existing in a state of utter discombobulation, *BROKE*, and fattening myself up in time for the next human sacrifice ritual in tondo, manila...


==:::A Few Friendly Reminders from your Resident Sane Psycho:::==

life is an unequivocally fast paced string of events, where the essence of a lifetime can be captured in a single breath, love can develop in a second, and where a long journey can feel like just another ride in the metro rail...

so put on your pink tinted glasses, wear your cheesiest smile. life's too short and much too precious to waste with the frivolities of a shallow existence.

let's limbo!

change is the only constant thing in life.

though it is most difficult to cope with change, we must.

it is survival. it is evolution.

but then again,

what if this change is brought about by paranormal sensations and emotions, unforeseen circumstances, hormonal imbalances, and... the weather?

what if this change is caused by things that are not things. forces that are immaterial?

how do we cope?

how do we end the relentless and crazed see-saw of intense emotions churning deep within us?

how do we stop misery?

how do we prolong happiness?

with a four millimeter bullet?

with a cup of peppermint-tasting cyanide?

with prayer?

i don't know.

i can't even begin to pretend to know, or to comprehend.

and i'm sure,

neither can you.

and it scares me.

it scares us.

that this we cannot understand.

everything else --science, mathematics, ratios, proportions, wars, peace talks, chocolate sprinkles and gum drops, ponies and rabbits, Nobel awards-- we know.

but this,

this simple shift of light and darkness,

this slight distinction,

this sudden rearranging of matter, molecules, and sensations.

this indescribable phenomena.

this we cannot even begin to grasp.

illogical, senseless, strange, odd.

fleeting, momentous, gargantuan, colossal.

what is the meaning behind this change in mood? in feeling?

what is the real root? the common cause?

perhaps we have been doomed to be this way.

to not understand.

to be left in the dark.

doomed to be able to adapt with everything else but this simple swing.

this simplistic issue.

never to find a way to evolve around it.

but perhaps.... in this case,

evolution is not survival.

for if you can just grin and bear it.

take it for what it is.

let go of the logic behind it.

perhaps then, survival is possible.

change is not imperative.

accepting is a prerogative, the answer, the key.