steph: "bakit kasi hindi na lang IKAW ang magtext sa kanya?"
giselle: "ayoko! it was my turn last week! i texted him last friday, saturday, AND sunday. AKO ung NAUNA sa lahat ng times na un. siya naman! ...i mean... if you were a guy, tas may girl na nagtetext palagi... wouldn't it be... weird?"
steph: "nga naman... eh pero.. bakit ba gusto mo siya mauna?"
giselle: "kasi... kasi... [nakakunot na forehead ko by this time] i want him to prove something."
steph: "feeling mo ba may gusto siya sa yo?"
giselle: "[ouch] oo! hindi! malay ko! GUSTO KO MALAMAN! gusto ko ng proweba... paghindi siya nagtext this weekend... it'll be easier for me para tapusin ito."
steph: "pano nun matatapos un?"
giselle: "kasi if he doesn't text this weekend... it means na wala lang sa kanya lahat ng ito. so ibig sabihin proven na na wala talaga... so... i can accept reality after this..."
steph: "aaah."
giselle: "mismo."
our conversaton went something like that...
so there...
i'm waiting... for a proof. evidence. fact.
i hope to God my first assumption was NOT correct.
[but why is it that even though his deadline's still tomorrow i already know FOR SURE that my first assumption is the ONLY correct CONCLUSION in this experiment?]
*sigh*
*blurb*
*~*
You think that I go home at night
Take off my clothes, turn out the lights
But I burn letters that I write
To you, to make you love me
Yeah, I drive naked through the park
And run the stop sign in the dark
Stand in the street, yell out my heart
To make, to make you love me
I am extraordinary, if you'd ever get to know me
I am extraordinary, I am just your ordinary
Average every day sane psycho
Supergoddess
Average every day sane psycho
See me jump through hoops for you
You stand there watching me performing
What exactly do you do?
Have you ever thought it's you that's boring?
Who the hell are you?
-Liz Phair's Extraordinary
definitely no longer searching for utopia, an ergaslophobic student and aspiring thespian, a true blue Filipina and Assumptionist, existing in a state of utter discombobulation, *BROKE*, and fattening myself up in time for the next human sacrifice ritual in tondo, manila...
Stars and Nebulas
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cathy
caMs
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gaDDi
iSSa
jOnesie
[[myky]]
[[nica]]
pam
[[stephie]]
synty
[[tasia]]
trizza
wissa
Flight
Alanis Morissette
Carbon Stereoxide Studio Notes
Cold Play
Dashboard Confessional
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
Haruki Murakami
Milk&Cereal
Miss Saigon
Paulo Coelho
Rent - the Musicale
Shawn Mullins
System of a Down
The Simpsons
The Sims
The Used
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==:::A Few Friendly Reminders from your Resident Sane Psycho:::==
life is an unequivocally fast paced string of events, where the essence of a lifetime can be captured in a single breath, love can develop in a second, and where a long journey can feel like just another ride in the metro rail...
so put on your pink tinted glasses, wear your cheesiest smile. life's too short and much too precious to waste with the frivolities of a shallow existence.
let's limbo!
change is the only constant thing in life.
though it is most difficult to cope with change, we must.
it is survival. it is evolution.
but then again,
what if this change is brought about by paranormal sensations and emotions, unforeseen circumstances, hormonal imbalances, and... the weather?
what if this change is caused by things that are not things. forces that are immaterial?
how do we cope?
how do we end the relentless and crazed see-saw of intense emotions churning deep within us?
how do we stop misery?
how do we prolong happiness?
with a four millimeter bullet?
with a cup of peppermint-tasting cyanide?
with prayer?
i don't know.
i can't even begin to pretend to know, or to comprehend.
and i'm sure,
neither can you.
and it scares me.
it scares us.
that this we cannot understand.
everything else --science, mathematics, ratios, proportions, wars, peace talks, chocolate sprinkles and gum drops, ponies and rabbits, Nobel awards-- we know.
but this,
this simple shift of light and darkness,
this slight distinction,
this sudden rearranging of matter, molecules, and sensations.
this indescribable phenomena.
this we cannot even begin to grasp.
illogical, senseless, strange, odd.
fleeting, momentous, gargantuan, colossal.
what is the meaning behind this change in mood? in feeling?
what is the real root? the common cause?
perhaps we have been doomed to be this way.
to not understand.
to be left in the dark.
doomed to be able to adapt with everything else but this simple swing.
this simplistic issue.
never to find a way to evolve around it.
but perhaps.... in this case,
evolution is not survival.
for if you can just grin and bear it.
take it for what it is.
let go of the logic behind it.
perhaps then, survival is possible.
change is not imperative.
accepting is a prerogative, the answer, the key.