we stayed at celine's pad til 4 pm, at which time her ubberr [[hott]] brother came with their family driver. we left around 4:30 because kuya anton suffered a sudden impulse of 'queer eye for the straight girl' syndrome, and demanded that twinstar change her top and wear a poncho.
we arrived at eastwood at 5 pm, went straight to tokyo tokyo for some grub, and started chatting about life, reality, and fun crap. and then someone came along and made me smile! friend surprised me by being there. ehehe... i told her not to go anymore because of the weather and transportation difficulties, but she still came, and that made me uber duper happee.
we then proceeded to powerstation to murder the karaoke machine... and after a healthy round of songs (tasia and i got a 100 when we sang uptown girl. yeah, tandem to beat! mwahahaha; cams, kat, and jackie joined us at that point), went to OJ's, ang kanlungan ng mga disturbed adolescents.
grabe... never knew my friends had so many stuff bothering them, family, love, and equally redundant and frustrating crap. pero it was nice to be able to talk to them about something serious and real. sabi nga ni myky, hindi kailangang palaging masaya.
woohoo... looks like we're all maturing, growing older, getting a bit more normal with each passing moment, each passing day.
friend was uber sweet, she told me she'd wait at starbucks so that my kada and i could be alone for a while. we finished our 'session' around 8:00, and i picked her up. we watched Wedding Date after that. panalo talaga ung linyang: 'i'd rather be fighting with you than making love with anyone else.' woohoo... familiar line ah.
so there...
short lived paradise.
but twas well worth it.
crap.
i'm writing such crappy entries.
haven't been myself for quite a while now...
~*~
definitely no longer searching for utopia, an ergaslophobic student and aspiring thespian, a true blue Filipina and Assumptionist, existing in a state of utter discombobulation, *BROKE*, and fattening myself up in time for the next human sacrifice ritual in tondo, manila...
Stars and Nebulas
aLi
bea
cathy
caMs
[[twinstaR]]
[[fRienD]]
kaTrina
gaDDi
iSSa
jOnesie
[[myky]]
[[nica]]
pam
[[stephie]]
synty
[[tasia]]
trizza
wissa
Flight
Alanis Morissette
Carbon Stereoxide Studio Notes
Cold Play
Dashboard Confessional
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
Haruki Murakami
Milk&Cereal
Miss Saigon
Paulo Coelho
Rent - the Musicale
Shawn Mullins
System of a Down
The Simpsons
The Sims
The Used
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==:::A Few Friendly Reminders from your Resident Sane Psycho:::==
life is an unequivocally fast paced string of events, where the essence of a lifetime can be captured in a single breath, love can develop in a second, and where a long journey can feel like just another ride in the metro rail...
so put on your pink tinted glasses, wear your cheesiest smile. life's too short and much too precious to waste with the frivolities of a shallow existence.
let's limbo!
change is the only constant thing in life.
though it is most difficult to cope with change, we must.
it is survival. it is evolution.
but then again,
what if this change is brought about by paranormal sensations and emotions, unforeseen circumstances, hormonal imbalances, and... the weather?
what if this change is caused by things that are not things. forces that are immaterial?
how do we cope?
how do we end the relentless and crazed see-saw of intense emotions churning deep within us?
how do we stop misery?
how do we prolong happiness?
with a four millimeter bullet?
with a cup of peppermint-tasting cyanide?
with prayer?
i don't know.
i can't even begin to pretend to know, or to comprehend.
and i'm sure,
neither can you.
and it scares me.
it scares us.
that this we cannot understand.
everything else --science, mathematics, ratios, proportions, wars, peace talks, chocolate sprinkles and gum drops, ponies and rabbits, Nobel awards-- we know.
but this,
this simple shift of light and darkness,
this slight distinction,
this sudden rearranging of matter, molecules, and sensations.
this indescribable phenomena.
this we cannot even begin to grasp.
illogical, senseless, strange, odd.
fleeting, momentous, gargantuan, colossal.
what is the meaning behind this change in mood? in feeling?
what is the real root? the common cause?
perhaps we have been doomed to be this way.
to not understand.
to be left in the dark.
doomed to be able to adapt with everything else but this simple swing.
this simplistic issue.
never to find a way to evolve around it.
but perhaps.... in this case,
evolution is not survival.
for if you can just grin and bear it.
take it for what it is.
let go of the logic behind it.
perhaps then, survival is possible.
change is not imperative.
accepting is a prerogative, the answer, the key.




